Hectic Sugarcane Swazi

Oppi Stoep
2 min readJan 11, 2021

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The zeitgeist in an accidental capture from Twitter.

Image © G. Davies

Guys. What the fuck is going on though.I feel like we are in limbo. It’s so unsettling. It feels like the earth’s magnetic pole is about to shift, right?Yoh. You and me both. Deaths are getting so close to home too.

I just feel angry and frustrated all the time. It’s been so tough to snap myself out of it and remain focused on work and being positive for work this year. It’s exhausting!

I saw my therapist today and she reassured me making major decisions now (or any decision really) feels fraught because things are changing so dramatically from day to day. Hang in there [Red Heart] Reading all the responses here did help me ever so slightly sjoe. I thought I was being a weak human by not being able to ‘function normally’ the last few weeks :(

One day at a time affects our finances, our plans, our family. It’s all just so uncertain for so many people. Sucks balls. I totally feel you.I don’t know when we will be allowed to work again and that was fueling my purpose significantly.

Can’t get anything done these days..brain stopped working. Help I don’t know and I don’t have motivation to literally do anything at all. Anxiety is through the roof and I’m absolutely sick to death of being home alone. I hate everything about everything right now.

Completely listless. Like I’m living in a void and time is not linear. And I hate this feeling, because it feels too much like depression. For a while I was good in that area. But I don’t like where this is heading. And a friend in the science field told me we need to learn to live with the 3rd, 4th, and 5th waves coming.

And now I just feel lost.

Uncertain.

Scared.

Hectic Sugarcane Swazi was created from tweets selected from a thread on Twitter by [jetsundolma @TaraDomOs]

The title is from another tweet by [𝔰 𝔫 𝔬 𝔴 @lilithlakshmi]

That it beautifully captured the zeitgeist is almost accidental.

© Jesh Baker, 2021 All Rights Reserved

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Oppi Stoep
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